Sleeping and waking up
I went to bed last night at one oclock in the morning really…and then woke up at 6:30a.m. so I didn’t get enough sleep really. So I was really grumpy… I mean REALLY grumpy and what I call AGITATED in block capitals!!!!
Moving on….the day was pretty shit…so then I was feeling sleepy sitting by the fire at around 4.oopm in the afternoon and then I fought that sleep and went to bed at 6.00pm …and then woke up at 12 midnight…..slept really well though.
So…now its 02:24 in the early hours of the morning I am still awake ….balls!!!
So….I am relaxing and watching the end of “The Only Way Is Essex” and have decided to turn the t.v. off when that programme finishes in 10 minutes or so…and then go to bed. I will need to set the alarm I think so I do not sleep in too late.
Tomorrow is Sunday so I like to go to church on a Sunday and I am looking forward to going to that.
I have been to see the G.P. this week and I have got some help with nicotene addiction. I am trying to slow down my smoking habit which I restarted in July 2009 after quitting when I was pregnant and breastfeeding Jennifer( for 9 months I breastfed her). Even when I was on a Section and then hospitalised in Broadoak from Late November to early April 2009 – I still managed to stay off the cigarettes – although I have to say that during my hospitalisation at Broadoak in Broadgreen, Liverpool I may have put on up to 3 or 4 stones in weight … so fizzy drinks and chocolate and fattening food replaced something that I may have felt was missing inside of me. The fact that I didn’t stay in a Mother and Baby unit whilst I was unwell did nothing to help my situation. They (Merseycare) offered me a place in a mother and baby in Leeds, Yorkshire, and the thought of going there was just intolerable to me because it was just so so far away.
Unfortunately at the time the mother and baby unit in Manchester was full and unfortunately for me and other mothers who live in Merseyside – the catchment area which Merseycare covers – there wasn’t a Mother and Baby unit in Liverpool or even in Merseyside. How is it that a huge, money making company like Merseycare which supports all sorts of mental illness – still cannot find the funding to have a Mother and Baby unit in Liverpool or close by to support mothers who are experiencing depression, be it post-natal or other forms???????
It doesn’t seem fair to me….that the closest unit is in Manchester??? How does that work??? Not very effective for me and my daughter Jennifer.
No…In my mind…Merseycare needs a Mother and baby unit to support mothers who have just given birth or even before the birth possibly and need the extra support that would provide in MERSEYSIDE! Come on guys!!! Let us all work to achieve this goal and make good come out of a bad experience!!!